Thursday, December 22, 2011

Captured


I’m out on the beautiful deck of the KCM guesthouse, or Jesus House as it is otherwise termed… and it’s the cool of the evening and so beautiful. Whenever people think of Ugandan weather, I find they immediately think hot and sticky – almost unbearable temperatures – but it’s so far from that. Yes, we have our hot days – but near the capital, where we are based the temperature doesn’t stray far from 26 degrees at the hottest time of the day, and around 18 in the evening – and it’s a dry heat, the air isn’t as think as back home – just about perfect I would say. I don’t handle heat very well, then add in humidity like we have in our hot, stormy Australian summers - and it’s a licence to retreat to the nearest air-conditioned centre – or cool coffee shop by the beach (with a few exceptions that aren’t, namely: Rosie Blu and/or Indulge – mood depending;)).



So it’s been 2 weeks, almost to the day that I arrived in this fascinating country that has somehow captured me. Beware. If you dare travel to Africa, be prepared to never return complete. You’ll always leave a part of you here. I think… it’s just about impossible to travel here, doing the ‘tourist’ thing, or otherwise – and not be impacted. No, I’m not just talking about the crazy extremes in poverty and the dire lack of opportunities for Ugandans – even for those who are educated, or that backward governmental system which is only self-seeking and while trying to appear that it has a heart for the people it governs, it fails miserably. People can see right to the true motives. I’m not just talking about the crazy road system where potholes (craters) are norm, and the even crazier traffic situation – seriously, if there is any rule here, it is that there are none – and just expect the person driving straight  for you to swerve at the very last second, or that boda (motorbike) rider to pull out right in front of you – or that taxi (mini bus, with 14 seats and 21 people) to just pull to a stop in the main street, sit there for 5 minutes to let passengers out, and take on new ones – without any clear route around him – traffic backing up behind us, horns beeping. Yep, Ugandan traffic is something. And what is even crazier, is that there are actually rules. Yep. But these traffic police have no hope of keeping up. Kind of like when a riot that has just overpowered the riot police – where do they even start to gain back control? Seatbelts are rule – nobody wears them. Talking on mobile phones while driving is illegal, yet everyone does. Boda drivers have to wear helmets, yet you’ll be lucky to find one in the thousands.  Taxis are only allowed to carry 14 passengers, yet if the conductor can squeeze in just a few more – there’s no doubt he will. Seriously, we could have fun playing ‘corners’ in this country, but somehow I think the Ugandan seated next to me would understand what the ‘muzungu’s’ crazy point was…. I’ll just sit quietly and pray to get there safely instead.  I’m not talking about the mother and child sitting on the corner of the major shopping precinct, grubby, torn clothes, begging for money - people just walking by – probably confused at how to help them, I mean, really help them. Or the child, not older than 6 standing in the middle of a busy street begging for money in the jam of traffic – mum nowhere to be seen, but you just know that she is hiding on the sidelines ready to collect any money her adorable child brings in, only by tearing passers-by heartstrings, mostly foreigners – locals know better than to encourage such behaviour. Helping perhaps, but so temporarily – and definitely not encouraging the family out of the cycle of poverty. I heard of one doctor here who decided not just to walk by, but not just to offer money either – she picked up the very young child and began walking towards her clinic which was just close by – knowing that the mother would come running . When she did, the doctor purposed to talk to her, and ask her what she could do to ‘really’ help her and stop her from putting her child on the street. The mother was offered a job as a house maid to another doctor, and his family. Fairly paid, fairly treated. Clean, warm bed for her and her child. She lasted only a couple of weeks, and then left without a word – clearly, the street was more of a lucrative business. The risks of putting her child in the middle of the ridiculous Ugandan traffic, didn’t outweigh the benefits of a steady, safe income - in her mind. So sad. So, anyone  who travels here is encouraged not to give these children,  or adult beggars money – offer to give them water, food – transport back to their home – but don’t give them money. This only encourages them to stay on the street.

So tonight – I’m not talking about all these things that work together and snatch a part of you, preventing you returning ‘home’ the same. Tonight I speak of the people here who really imprint your heart. Full stop. No matter their situation, or background. They are blessings, when they don’t realise they even are. Their sense of fun, energy, their grace, humbleness, the girls’ sassiness – (they’re cute, and they know it;)), the guys’ humor, their friendliness, non-judgemental nature, resilience, faith in the face of hardships, every single person’s determination  - you see, these guys capture me, and I have no doubt, they would capture you too.  I am blessed because I have seen, and witnessed. Now I know... I will never be the same.

I was in a coffee shop today. The power was off back home, and I had things I wanted to do on my laptop so went and hung out there for a few hours. They have wifi. As soon as I had arrived, a guy named ‘Emmanuel’ came and sat opposite me – and in fairly good English asked to have a few moments of my time. He was 23, and had been offered a full scholarship to a university in China – school fees, food, accommodation – everything for the entirety of his Engineering program. He came with his church’s recommendation and was just going from person to person with his story, appealing for help with his air ticket – the only thing between him and his scholarship. No air ticket, no scholarship. It seemed crazy to me. The price of an air ticket would determine his future. He was obviously highly motivated, yet humble at the same time – to be able to appeal to complete strangers for help. I helped as I could – but he still has a long way to go before he is on that plane to China. I just pray that he may find someone to sponsor his trip. There is no HECS system here – you pay as you go, or you don’t study. And if you’re parents cannot pay for your university fees, or your big brother – than simply, you don’t go to university. Students right out of school have no way of paying their own way through university – yet they are among the most motivated individuals I have ever met. This world is really not equitable. Emmanuel will do so well if  he can only get on that plane. Keep him in your prayers? I really hope he makes it.

Well, it’s the Kyampisi Children’s Christmas party tomorrow. We’ve bought a whole bunch of Christmas food, and sweets. We have Christmas shoeboxes to give out to the children – sent from a church in the US and we have enough sugar to keep these guys going well into the afternoon. Should be a good day, I’m definitely looking forward to it. So on that note, at 11.40pm – I will head to bed.

I have much more to write, and will soon. Much love to everyone back home.

Sula Bulungi (Good night)

x

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Wide smiles, red dirt, cassava and beans - definitely back in Uganda!

Might be a bit of a surprise to some, it came around fairly quickly this time, and there were a few question marks as to whether I’d be able to make it this year – but things all fell in together and I’m here finally, it feels good. Kind of feels like home in a way. Silly, but I got a bit restless before I came. Not sure why exactly, but as I flew into Uganda and I was greeted with familiar faces, it was just like... ‘I’m home’. Any silly reservations I had went away, and I’m settling back in. Jetlagged perhaps, but I am definitely feeling more human today, after a bit more sleep last night.

This blog of thoughts has been a little quiet, well – it was never very rowdy to start with – but in the absence of updates - my mind has been overactive, and life has been busy. It’s been almost 18 months since I’ve been in Uganda, and it has been wonderful to be back in Australia - to be with family, and friends. To be back at work, and to be open to opportunities that have come along. But, my thoughts (as you could probably tell from my last blog) have been crowded with wanting to know God’s will in my life. Where my place truly is and how to get in the centre of His will –wanting to know how to live a Kingdom life. My great Aunty Edna,who was a missionary nurse in India with a leprosy mission for many years, once said, ‘There is no better place to be than in the centre of God’s will.’ I so believe this, and I so much want this for my life. As opportunities come, I’ve been waiting for God’s direction, for his peace in the plans and decisions that I make and he’s been teaching me patience while not revealing all the pieces of the puzzle at one time. Sometimes answering ‘just wait’, rather than ‘yes’ or ‘no’. Little by little, and thankfully I am content to wait as I know the plan God has is so far greater than any I could plan for myself. I know beyond anything, that I serve a faithful God. For the past 12 months, I’ve been working back as a Paediatric nurse in my hometown, and I’ve really enjoyed it. Kind of feels like I’ve had the opportunity to cement my skills and gain a bit more confidence in my abilities, and role. An opportunity came along for me to study midwifery in 2012. Something, that I’ve truly wanted to do since as long as I can remember. While employed as a Registered Nurse/Student Midwife, the position is linked with a university where I would study a full time postgraduate diploma in Midwifery for 12months. The practical component of the course is fulfilled by being employed as a student midwife, and the theoretical component is covered by university. I have heard the year is full on, but I think it’s well worth it. Just hang in there for 12 months, and I’m done. No more study for me. I was offered the position, and have accepted. I prayed that doors would be closed if I was not supposed to do this, but every door just stayed open and I believe it is where I am meant to be for next year. I can see having the skill and knowledge base midwifery would be valuable, wherever I may find myself in the world. So that’s next year sorted. From then, who knows?

So, right now I’m here in Uganda… to be available basically. I had annual leave banked up and before I begin my new job in January, I wanted to spend my time in Uganda – with the busyness of next year, I am not sure (although I hope) that I will have a chance to come back until 2013. I’ve learned since arriving that I will be helping with a child nutrition research project, linked with a local organisation here. I’m still learning about the structure of the project, but will meet with the organisation soon and try to get it up and running. I have very limited information at this stage, as I learn more, I’ll update everyone on the details. Hopefully we will be able to get in and finalise the groundwork before I leave in a few weeks’ time. Last time I was in Uganda, we did a child health and sanitation survey of Kyampisi and the findings were quite insightful. It was our first attempt at this sort of survey, so this time around we will have that experience behind us – knowing what worked well, what didn’t. The information that can be gained from research is so helpful in initiating change, for writing proposals. Without understanding of the situations we are dealing with, we are not able to target effective programs that will bring real change. So, I am really looking forward to this project, but more so, what may come from it. I’ll keep you guys posted.

Being back in Uganda is a good feeling. It’s so hard to describe the feeling to somebody that hasn’t been here, but, I believe Uganda just has God’s favour on it, as does Kyampisi. In a big way. I think it would be hard to find somebody who could come here and not be touchednand challenged. How can one see, but not do anything I guess? Once we have seen, we have a responsibility – but it’s even beyond that. It’s not a chore or a burden (although yes, sometimes it really hurts, it’s hard, it stretches us), but in it, you find joy. I am privileged to have seen, definitely challenged and I want to do what I can to help. It's humbling to be back here.

Yesterday we travelled to Kyampisi. I had a chance to see the new children’s church, Alan’s house and 2 new protected water sources that have come since I was here last. It was so amazing to see! Last time I was here, there were NO functioning protected wells/bore holes, and this time I drank straight from a protected well – the water was so clean and fresh and 24hours later – I have no belly ache. What a blessing! I met with a jajja (grandmother) who lives just up from a new protected bore hole, and all she could do was raise her hands in praise to God for the new watering hole that was established just behind where she lives – she doesn’t have to walk for miles with a 20litre jerry can any longer. We talked with her for a time, and then as we were leaving she brought over handful after handful of fresh ‘gnuts’ (groundnuts), or peanuts as we know them. She filled my handbag with nuts, and my friend, Robert's pockets full! This morning I woke to find a trail off ants out of my bag, and all I could do was smile. What a generous heart this jajja has. These people barely have anything, but without hesitation – give to overflowing. This perhaps is the single thing that challenges my heart the most. So many of these people have, by the western world's standards, nothing - but they truly seem to have everything. It is amazing to witness. By the way, the nuts were fine. The ants didn’t get into too many, and we have plans to roast them :) Freshest nuts I’ve ever had, that’s for certain. We had the midweek service at the church after then, with the children’s choir singing praise and a message. It was so good to be back with everyone in Kyampisi again. The children are growing; they are even speaking more English! New babies have been born, and new families are coming along to the church. What a great first day back in Uganda! Today, we went into the city to get my phone sorted with a new sim and a few other things. We stopped in briefly at a café called ‘Café Jaava’s’ and had our first coffee since leaving Australia. It was so good. Recharged, and back home now. I have a chance to sit and write. I’ve got little Mukisa George on my lap just watching what I’m up to, while eating a piece of fried cassava. Definitely in love with this place.

Just some encouragement I found this morning as I was doing my morning devotion today - I came across the passage in 1 Corinthians 12:12 titled 'One Body, Many Parts' . It just reminded me how everyone has been gifted in different ways, and it is because of that we can work together to achieve a common goal. One is an arm, one a leg - one an eye, one an ear - while one is even the sole of a foot. One, cannot function fully (as it should) without the other, and each part has equal importance - whether that be in an obvious role like the hand, or not so obvious as the sole of a foot. If we can all work harmoniously together - at whatever it is we have our mind set to - we can really achieve great things! Challenge accepted.

Well, blog one written. There will be more. I am determined this time to update more regularly, to keep everyone update on what’s happening here. I will forgo sleep to write an update (if it comes to that... hopefully not:/). So keep posted. Thanks for all your encouragement and prayers while I am away. I have seen God move in incredible ways – even being away for these past 18months, and returning – I can see how face KCM has come, and still have so far to go – but hearts are willing and ready to go there. What a ride.

Night all.
x

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Challenged

God manages to reach me through the words in songs - I'm learning they're powerful tools to equip and challenge... There are times they make me restless and uncomfortable, in my most comfortable, comfort zone. As now. And I know I need to respond, but just now, I'm not sure how to. Perhaps it's fear, or perhaps my own selfishness. Perhaps it's being scared of missing the point - being His will and plan, so it's just safer to sit and wait? I don't know. Yet, restless and again shifted from my cushy comfort zone -- I know I need to answer back. Somehow..


I Will Follow You



Where you go, I'll go
Where you stay, I'll stay
When you move, I'll move
I will follow...

All your ways are good
All your ways are sure
I will trust in you alone
Higher than my side
High above my life
I will trust in you alone

Where you go, I'll go
Where you stay, I'll stay
When you move, I'll move
I will follow you
Who you love, I'll love
How you serve I'll serve
If this life I lose, I will follow you
I will follow you

Light unto the world
Light unto my life
I will live for you alone
You're the one I seek
Knowing I will find
All I need in you alone, in you alone

In you there's life everlasting
In you there's freedom for my soul
In you there's joy, unending joy
and I will follow

(Chris Tomlin, Jason Ingram, Reuben Morgan)


Listen here, in the top left hand corner of the page: http://www.worshiptogether.com/songs/songdetail.aspx?iid=1816362


[When Jesus heard this, he said to him, “You still lack one thing. Sell everything you have and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow me.” Luke 18:22]

[By day the LORD went ahead of them in a pillar of cloud to guide them on their way and by night in a pillar of fire to give them light, so that they could travel by day or night. Neither the pillar of cloud by day nor the pillar of fire by night left its place in front of the people. Exodus 13:21-22 NIV]

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Uganda: Retracing Steps

I have just started reading a book called ‘Missionaries in Action’. I recently spent some time on the Sunshine Coast – and dropped into the Koorong in Mooloolaba. I find Koorong a little dangerous (for my bank account at least), and no matter how many times I drop in there - always seem to find a book that stands out. But I remember a wise person telling me one day past, never to feel guilty about spending money on a good book…a good book. So, I have taken this on board, and find my library gradually filling with books that mean something to me, my walk with God and my walk in this thing we call life. I find retreat in beautiful books. This time, I found this book called Missionaries in Action. I have only read 5 chapters, but can already recommend it as it is a book filled with short testimonies of missionaries on the front line. From young short termers, to those who have been in the field for 18+ years. The stories are beautiful, true, raw and impacting.

It took me back to Uganda.

I haven’t written a great deal of my time in Uganda on this blog, or anywhere really. Not because I don’t have anything to say, but perhaps I haven’t known exactly how to put it into words. But I know that I need to. My experience, of almost 4 months in Uganda (including some time in Tanzania) and 1 1/2 months in the UK – was nothing but forever life changing. We hear it said, almost stereotypically – but there is no other way to really say it. My life was and is forever changed. To the point of right now, not knowing exactly what to do with the gift of this experience, and where my place now is. How can I now – return to Australia and begin life again – having witnessed, held, touched, heard, laughed and cried in this beautiful country filled with desperation, yet faithful action and vibrancy? When I have seen firsthand the sufferings, and hardships of those who are every bit as valuable as any individual born into a western world – yet who are not given the same opportunities, under a corrupt government and devastating poverty? If not given the opportunity – how can the cycle be broken? With this experience etched on my heart, what now is my life? Faith without action is dead. Knowledge, experience, wisdom – without putting it in action is useless. Isn’t it? These are all questions that I have on my heart.

On the 10 March, 2010 I boarded a flight destined for Entebbe Airport, Uganda, Africa (that is via….a few stopovers). After a 28 hour journey, will one have jetlag when arriving in Africa? Most probably. But in confidence I can say, the adrenaline compensation (and a couple of strong spicy African teas...) work wonders until the sleep, happens to catch up. This was my second time to the beautiful country – the first in 2008 where I stayed for only 2 weeks as a short termer. This was with a wonderful organisation called ‘Empower-A-Child’ – (check their website: http://www.empower-a-child.org/ ). I was really encouraged during that time, and it was in these seemingly short two weeks that God gently prompted my heart for more. This time, I returned to the young and rapidly growing mission in Kyampisi Childcare Ministries (KCM) ( www.kyampisi.org ). KCM is a registered not for profit organisation whose aim is to give vulnerable children physical, emotional and spiritual springboards which will enable them to live lives that are full, productive and positive (quote taken directly from their website if you were curious;)). This is achieved by a whole bunch of projects, one of the biggest being Kyampisi Childcare Centre, a primary school in the remote village of Kyampisi. Here, free and accessible education is provided to children in and around the village of Kyampisi, who may otherwise never have the opportunity for education. Essentials such as a simple breakfast and lunch (these, may be there only meal for the day), clothing, enclosed shoes, school supplies, essential medicines, Spiritual education and mentorship are provided through the school and become wonderful opportunities for volunteers and staff to be evidence of God’s love and concern for these young lives and their families. Right now there is (equivalent of) Kindy to Grade 2. The hope is for every year the children advance in their schooling, another class will be added. While I was with KCM, I had the opportunity to be involved with teaching in the school – and while I have very limited ability to speak Luganda (the local language), I was able to teach basic English and during exam week, helped to supervise the many enthusiastic (and gorgeously cheeky) children through a few gruelling days of exams. It’s amazing how fast you pick up on specific Lugandan words – such as ‘bambi Tula!’ (please sit) and 'genda bambi’ (go please) (ha, well at least I hope that is what it means. My Luganda, already is becoming scratchy) – they came in handy when the cheeky children who had finished their exams and allowed out of the classroom – kept returning and peeking through the doors, with smiles and laughter – hoping I would get up to chase them away (and most probably laugh hysterically when I attempted to speak to them in Luganda!). It was a wonderful experience. And through this....I have developed an even greater respect for travellers to Australia who don't have English as their first language. When they attempt to put 2 or 3 words together, and we have to work out what they are trying to say – wow, I understand now…..(not what they’re trying to say!, but what they’re going through).

Children in need are the main focus of KCM – and this becomes a project in itself. For a child in dire circumstances, whether that be through abuse, illness or another cause – I witnessed KCM do everything they could to protect that child, and if possible better their circumstances. An example of this include 2 young girls from Kyampisi village who were reported to KCM as having been abused – and the abusers were thought to be in the extended family. KCM worked alongside the police to investigate the cases, and provided temporary accommodation for the girls at the volunteer house, until it was deemed they could safely return. One of the girls did not go back to the village, but through the gift of sponsorship and KCM funding, she was enrolled in boarding school and is now safe, and getting essential education. The girls were also taken to the city to be tested (or in the process of being) for HIV and other illnesses - as these are high risk in such circumstances.

Another little girl, who attends Kyampisi Childcare Centre, was found to have severely infected feet from jiggers, or harvest mites. These little insects are similar to fleas – but they do not only bite, but burrow into the skin where they sit and grow and become embedded. The area becomes painful, and if not removed quickly – the jigger multiplies causing a large area of the foot to become infected. (Sorry if your tummy is turning right now). They can be simply prevented by wearing enclosed shoes, but the majority of children and adults in the villages - where harvest mites are rampant – cannot afford even one pair of flip flop sandals, let alone a pair of enclosed shoes. So sadly, they live with the constant battle against jiggers. I experienced the ‘jigger’ on more than one occasion. Before I was aware of them, or perhaps before I took them seriously – I would visit the village in flip flops – I began to get a very sore and swollen toe – only to be told it was a jigger! And the only way to remove it was with a safety pin and gritted teeth….. It was impossible to count the number of jiggers in this little girl's feet. She could hardly walk. She was taken in and the process of cleaning her wounds and removing jiggers began and continued over many days. With no pain relief available – she sat stoically, tear by tear falling quietly down her face. She was put on a course of antibiotics to help clear the infection, and as time passed, it was wonderful to see her able to start running, playing and smiling again.

At the heart of KCM, is a desire to bring change. The faith is evident, as is the action – my heart is challenged over and over. Injustice needs to be confronted, or it never has cause to stop. While in Uganda – a team including around 4 international volunteers (1, a professional video editor from the UK) shot a DVD for a campaign seeking to bring an end to the horrific reality of Child Sacrifice. Child sacrifice was not something that I really thought about before going to Uganda – it’s not as though it didn’t seem important to me, only that I had never been, or at least, very rarely been exposed to it. Yet, child sacrifice is a daily reality in countries such as Uganda. Children, seen as precious and pure – are kidnapped and sacrificed to witchdoctors in the hope of gaining wealth, curing ill health or gaining blessings. Certain body parts have different meanings – so every sacrifice is brutal and specific. When we filmed the DVD, we met and interviewed people from a wide range of backgrounds – parents who had lost a child (or children) to sacrifice - parents whose child miraculously survived (you would understand why I say miraculously if you met these children and the scars that are left on their body's and hearts), to police officers, politicians and church leaders at the forefront of the fight against this increasing crime. It was confronting. The graphic stories we heard, the broken faces we looked upon and the anguished lives we glanced into – perhaps, I wasn’t fully prepared for – but was thankful to witness. I can never go back to naivety – because I have seen. Sometimes, I am cut to know what to do with this….. The campaign was launched in the UK at a conference called ‘Newwine’. KCM, in partnership with the UK based charity Jubilee Campaign, had a site in the exhibition hall where the DVD was playing, and information was available for those who wanted to know more. We were readily available to answer questions as they were asked. The reactions were varied, one of the most common was a heart wrenched stare at the moving images on the TV as the DVD played, followed by a question: 'Does that still happen?' Yes, it sadly does. We also had a petition that is to be presented to the Ugandan government with the hope of having legislation changed to protect vulnerable children.
The campaign continues this year, and if you would like to sign the petition, you can. There is an online version on the Jubilee Campaign website: http://www.jubileecampaign.co.uk/petition
or you can download and print a copy, get your friends to sign and send it back to KCM or the Jubilee Campaign here: http://www.kyampisi.org/Documents/New_Wine_Petition.pdf Deadline for the petition is 1 August 2011.
The thought of child sacrifice can be overwhelming. How can we really do anything to stop such a thing that has been going on for generations? It is overwhelming, as it is huge. But we serve a greater God who sees. While we are limited – He is limitless. We have the voices and ability to stand. While we can, we should and wait with fervent expectation, change.